So today I made an interesting observation. I am forgetting about Jan. I really am. It is like a dream. I think it was real but I just don't remember. I think that is God's way of helping me get through this. Perhaps I will have memories return later but now I just cannot take them. It is just too painful.
9:33 pm -
I went for a walk today. Actually it was more like wandering around the neighborhood. I didn't even put on exercise clothing. I just had on my jeans, long-sleeve shirt, ball cap, and RedWing shoes. I'm sure I looked a bit out of place but I was comfortable so that worked for me. I felt like I was on the edge of breaking down as I walked. I was able to go through the walking trails to clear my head a bit. It was calming but it was also just a moment of peace. I suppose I should just appreciate the moment.
Claire decided to wake up as it was time for her to sleep. Here is a pic as I attempted to get her to sleep.
She is finally asleep. I really like that she smiles at me all the time. I need that more than anything right now. It is healing. I'm going to watch a show and head to bed.
