Today was one of those days that flew by. It is 10:15 pm and I am just now getting a moment to breathe. I realize this new chapter is starting out very lonely. I also realize that there is more depth to the love we all have for each other in my family. My daughter and I were talking and I asked her if she would love mom more or the same as the last time she saw her when we see her again one day? She said more. I agreed that I would too. I believe it is because of the pain and sorrow we have experienced that this has expanded our ability to feel. To appreciate more. I have had the opportunity to travel to other countries and it was a similar feeling. I just realize how blessed we are when we see others with so little. This understanding is great but what a cost! I wish it didn't have to be this way. I would love to plug up a cord to my head and download all the lessons life has to offer without experiencing them and at the same time first hand experience is sobering. I've had a difficult time focusing on the positive lately. I recognized today that the sting of Jan's departure has lessened and I hope this trend continues. So perhaps that is something to be thankful for. All I know is my exhaustion is steadfast.
#depthoflove #costofappreciation
