We took the kids and got a tree today. I am happy for them as they are building fun memories but I just dislike Christmas. This season is filled with very tough memories for me.
Saturday, December 15, 2018
15 December 2018 (3 years, 11 months, 26 days after The Day)
Today was just another day I suppose. I find that I snap at the kids. I don't mean to but I do. I feel ever since Jan died that my patience is just gone. My dad snapped at us kids a lot and I feel I am acting a lot like him which I abhor. I know he had difficulty talking with kids and if I were looking for an excuse I suppose there is a billion. The fact is I shouldn't be snapping at them and I am aware that I do. I feel bad immediately as I do too so I suppose that is good that I am aware.
