Today I had difficulty in Sunday School - the lesson was on Lazarus. I just am left reflecting on the "what if's". Nothing good comes from this in my mind as I cannot go back in time. I can learn from these events but I cannot change them. I think all who grieve wish the Good Lord was there to bring our loved ones back.
I went by Jan's grave. I get that this is real but I have a hard time comprehending what this means long-term. I'm still day-to-day with all my efforts. My heart breaks tonight.
