07 May 2015 (138 days after The Day)

Big storms are blowing through DFW.  I am struggling today as I was yesterday.  I'm having trouble staying composed in front of my kids.  I went for a walk today and that was good.  I think I should do more of that.  I hope that will help me begin to process my emotions.  I just miss my Jan so so much.  I just cannot imagine living another 50 or more years without her.  I'm sure once I process this emotion I won't be so down but that is currently where I am.