19 May 2015 (150 days after The Day)

So after 2 hrs of sleep last night I emerged as someone studying for finals in college.  I don't know how I got through the day.  Personal counseling in the morning and group counseling at night have my mind in a Jello-like state.  I have only one jewel of a memory.  When I dropped of my kids today I had an experience which gave me a wonderful memory I hope to carry with me my whole life.  I hugged my kids as they left my car and my son came by and asked why I was crying.  I told him I was just a little sad.  He just hugged me and said "I love you daddy".  That moment healed a portion of my heart.  Then he just scampered off.  Well, I'm off to bed because at this point there is no telling what I could write.