30 July 2015 (222 days after The Day)

So today I talked with my kids about the role of Jan.  She was mom.  Mom has two roles... 1.)  The person and 2.) the responsibility.  My kids combined these mentally to say "mom".  I got into a conversation with my kids about how when mom left that only represented the person.  The responsibility still fell to me and grandma.  I fully believe that one day I will remarry and while that person will be taking on the responsibility of mom... they won't replace Jan the person.  I don't think I will ever stop missing and loving my sweet Jan.  It is hard for some to understand this and all I can say is imagine you lost a leg or arm... would you ever stop missing it?  I don't think you would.