So on this 242nd day after The Day I have been able to reflect back on the changes I have made in my life. So many changes and so many things still have not changed. Those that have have been huge milestones for me. I suppose all changes are milestones. Overall - I think the major ones that have been the most difficult are
1.) giving yourself permission to feel
2.) giving yourself permission to heal
3.) giving yourself permission to change
I have a strong amount of respect for all that Jan did for our little family. I have a newfound understanding of what I am capable of. Even now - I look back and think - those are some hard memories and I am glad they are over. That seems to be healing - just reflecting on all that has transpired. Looking down the latter to see how far I have climbed. It gives motivation to move forward.
