18 Aug 2015 (241 days after The Day)

So today I went back to work.  My mind was just not there.  I think I enjoyed my vacation.  Ha!  Well - I also think my mind has been thinking on something for some time.  I found that I can give myself permission to move forward on various things in life.... but when I do I let go of Jan a little bit and regain a bit of myself.  This letting go is like grieving all over again on a very small scale.  I'm trying to figure out how to allow myself to fully heal without letting go of everything.  I get the impression through my reflection that fully healing will require letting go.  Hmm.... I need to think on this.