15 June 2015 (177 days after The Day)

Today I had a wave of grief hit me like a brick wall.  As I left work I sat in my car.  It was hot and the AC was on full blast trying to cool down the car.  I just sat there.  The parking lot was empty and I was the last one leaving work... again.  I just sat in the empty parking lot in my hot car and wept.  What triggered this?  I don't know.  I'm still sad now.