What a day. I had a lot of little chores to take care of and this took much of the day. Around dinner I found myself missing Jan. I tried to occupy myself by fixing some stuff on our computer that is super complex and just kept hitting one road block after another. I couldn't concentrate. I decided to eat dinner with the family but the ache for Jan wouldn't leave. I found myself snapping at my kids and not being myself. My kids went on a walk with a neighbor and the quiet in the house helped a ton. What I realize is I just feel alone. My kids came back having caught a frog and a lizard. It was silly but this helped to snap me out of this funk. Grief waves are just tough to weather.
