11 June 2015 (173 days after The Day)

I had a weird feeling walking into the house after work.  I felt that Jan was there welcoming me home.  It was real and it was weird.  I feel like I could see her in my minds eye and the look of happiness was healing to me.  I went on a walk ... a long walk for me.   About 4 miles.  I came home tired and it was exactly what I needed.  I slept.  I slept in the first time in a long time.  I still miss Jan and I still smile thinking of what I saw in my minds eye.  Jan's smile is contagious.